What a ride- A New Chapter.

Whirlwind does not even begin to describe these past couple of weeks. Tempestuous but not destructive. Consuming but not overwhelming. And like a torrent that hits you when you least expect it, sometimes all you can do is drown in that thing called love.

Wont as I am to disclose more, I shall not do so here due to the fact that people I have no intention of sharing anything with, have access to this blog, which is public after all. Close friends (in contact) get all the details haha. Suffice to say that a new chapter begins and it's one I'm really looking forward to. Living a new life was never as real or within my grasp as it is now. The decisions I have made these two weeks have probably been amongst the best i made these two years.

On a different note, the urge to KTV has been rekindled, haha not least cuz of certain friends and the fact that the special one is such a good singer. Like oh god, I can just drop dead and die when he sings 每天愛你多一些 to me hahahaha. I've finally mastered that ancient song by 潘越云, the one that left such a lasting impression on me way back in primary 2, I never forgot the main 2 lines of the chorus.

That's right it's 我是不是你最疼爱的人 . Hahaha and entirely inappropriate as it may be at the current juncture, the song just resonates so deeply with me and I can sing it with a depth of emotion that even surprises me. Now try it and see. :) Whatever the case, it remains a very moving song.

我是不是你最疼爱的人- 潘越云



从来就没冷过 因为有你在我身後
你总是轻声地说黑夜有我
你总是默默承受这样的我不敢怨尤
现在为了什麽不再看我
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什麽不说话
握住是你冰冷的手动也不动让我好难过
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什麽不说话
当我需要你的时候 你却沉默不说

从来就没冷过因为有你挡住寒冻
你总是在我身後带着笑容
你总是细心温柔呵护守候这样的我
现在为了什麽不再看我
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什麽不说话
握住是你冰冷的手动也不动让我好难过
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什麽不说话
当我需要你的时候你却沉默不说

你最心疼我把眼哭红
记得你曾说过 不让我委屈泪流
我是不是你最疼爱的人
你为什麽不说话
当我需要你的时候你却沉默不说

Thankful

The past few months have seen so many changes, a marked departure from the status quo.

Of new friends and new experiences. The joys of quiet camaraderie, simple activities that are nonetheless enjoyable if not because of the company. The revival of old friendships and some not so old ones, but for all of whom, some much needed catching up. The spontaneity of actions, the heights of reactions, some wild but never dull.

The depths of disappointment, the fracturing of erstwhile strong bonds which on hindsight might not have been more substantial than dross. The confirmation that a couple of bonds and at least one in particular was nothing more than sanctimonious lip service. Hollow and fake. Though my instinct for that particular bitch was always right.

The tumultuous changes. Of love considered, contemplated then rejected for the simple reason that it was lacking. The ability to passively meet past loves and feel nothing more than genuine amicability and the quiet comfort one would feel with a close friend.

For all these changes and more, a bumpy ride at times but interesting and no less enjoyable by virtue of the company; I am thankful. Well I could do with a little more passion, more steamy trysts, but I'm still thankful. :)