Hello, 26

Another year, another occasion for reflection. To reflect on things past, and muse about the future. Of things lost and things to be gained. I guess solitude does cause one to be more contemplative.

I've waited long enough, paid this silent penance for months on end without knowing why or what I'm paying it for. Am I waiting or is it just inertia? Whatever it is, it's time to rouse from this numbing stupor and move on. Especially when the source of it all had no problems doing so in the first place. As they say, why bother.

So yes I know I've said this, it's time to move on. I believe I have in some ways, ask me to describe exactly how and I falter. Perhaps the transition from blinding rage to a bitter aftertaste to an old wound, nearly forgotten save for the occasional throb of pain best describes it.

Moving on. It's always easier said than done. Two simple words. A constant, continuous effort of considerable difficulty. But it's time to move on... for good.

Closer by Inoue Joe



You've got to be extra careful
with the things nearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
the tougher it is to see it

Explain to me this happiness
that you just got to experience.
Or maybe you're so blessed
that you can't even remember?
That you stand here now
That you live and breathe
They're all little miracles
just by themselves

You've got to be extra careful
with the things nearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
the tougher it is to see it

You know the closer you get to something
the tougher it is to see it
And I'll never take it for granted

It's fine to say "Never give up."
and "Keep chasing your dreams."
But the more time you spend talking big
the less you get done.
I'll press that handful of courage against my heart
and with its help, survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted
Let's go

I don't know why but I find this song appealing and meaningful. Perhaps it's just me.